decent man

I can feel the liquor sitting heavy in my chest
tossing them back like I do best
at the end of the bar in a cloud of smoke
burning my throat and trying to choke
passing the time with all the boys
and all the girls are being coy

for all my bad intentions,
I swear I'm a decent man
please stay with me tonight
and forget all that you can
i'll tuck you in
and kiss your lips
and rest my hand upon your hips
realizing this is where I want to be
the most frightening thing to come to me

we'll make all the promises
that we've always made
but this time is different
we're going to see it through
for the price that we've paid
I must apologize to you

I never wanted things to end,
not the way they did
with all my rage and all the pain
the walking home in the rain
all I have left to say is
I'm sorry

sages and seers

nothing can hide my transgressions
no one could see the man i would become
for these things are secret
if released, i would come undone

my father was a snake handler
my mother was a gypsy
i was bred for nothing
ill fate, come to get me

mind filled with cerebral thoughts
can't escape the paradox